They are really fantastic. I was so happy till I took pictures of my facework. :)
I have posted one of the pictures here. Have a look.
I know. You don't need to tell me. :P
Well then, let's get back to reality shall we?
Apparently some incidents happen that has made me in a situation where I am nowhere here or there. Some tell me not to bother and move on. Some tell me that they need time to move on. Some tell me to keep trying harder and make things happen.
End of the day, I just feel that this whole thing has been caused by me and only I need to solve this. Moving away from selective parties was the ultimate desicion in my head. It has actually been there for a long time. When I think about my decision, I know it was irrational to do it. Below are the following points which explains the good & disastrous effects of my decision.
1. No more room for such incidents and all will be happier in that sense.
2. No more hatred to occur at anytime.
2. Giving room and ample space for the following parties to be back together as how they were before.
3. Loosing Great people whom I know for almost half a decade.
You see, out of the 4 points stated, 3 are positive points to look for. But when I think of the last point, my heart weakens. A sudden pain comes in a flash and it will reoccur again & again until it becomes permanent. Sometimes, I really wish I had a memory loss so that I can forget what has happen and start life anew. Impossible I know. But it's just a emo feeling which I can't take it for a long period of time.
Well, maybe these things were suppose to happen. Last for most, some said I changed. For the better or for the worst? I don't realise any change in me.
Confused I would say. I am very confused.
;(
posted by ..BLaCkDiVa.. @ 3:46 PM
