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I think I am a making a good move here.

With all that Mambo Jumbo happened in the previous week, I started analysing a lot of things.
Little things like what has happened before and what is happening now.

When I start thinking of what happened before in the previous years, specifically the bad moments, I start to get a huge melancholy feel fluctuating in my heart. I could literally feel the veins and arteries burning. Tear glands overworked themselves for excessive production of tears to constantly flow down to my cheeks.

It was a horrible feeling or state to be in, until you just want to keep on telling yourself that it's you who caused the whole damn thing and if you were not around, things would have been better for the rest instead. Oh god. So melodramatic. But yes, I was at that point of time.

On the other hand, I think the good angel on one side hit me real hard with it's harp. Bringing me back to my senses on asking why did I have to do that now. Why did I have to think of what happened and weep about it when it's not happening anymore. I answered: Memories.

But wait, memories are suppose be good things right? Then what do you call thoughts that are only consisting of bad things? Hmmm... Something to ponder about eh?

Things happen for a reason. Thats a common saying. But the reason is not found yet until we find out for ourselves in the long run. And not to worry, it will be a good one and I believe in that. So should anyone. Have happy thoughts instead of grudges, hatred, betrayal and other negative factors that attracts you to the world to Hell. You will definitely see the world tuning to your kind of channel.

Henceforth, I have made a small vow to myself that I should not hold my frustrations and personal bad experiences lingering in that tiny spot in my brain. Let it go and let it be. If it's meant to be, so be it. Why worry about what happen then? Worry on what's happening now and plan for what's going to happen for the future. Throw the past, Live for the present, Plan for the future.

This is what I should do and what I should be doing. If those who want to think I am selfish on my decision and behaviour, well, I can only tell them to look at themselves on the mirror and ask themselves if they plan to do something about their lives.

Everyone needs to do something about their lives. No one else does it for you except yourself. Remember this.

Trust me, it's hard but a good learning journey which is never ending!

posted by ..BLaCkDiVa.. @ 3:05 PM