~*++*+*.BLaCkDiVa.*+*++*~

Sorry for being typically emo for the past post.
But lately, I have been in such state for quite sometime.

Major incidents have happened during End of March and Beginning of April, in which I will not disclose them here. Oh Well, somehow or rather I manage to get myself composed and try to see things positively.

I had major melancholic attacks in April. After much drilling and screwing the nut and bolt in my brain cells by others of whom I did not listen to initially, I sat down, ponder and listed all the attributes that hit my heart to allow the feel of being demolished. I started to think so much till I had formed delta-like lines on my cheeks with continuous flow of the salty river from the eye. Splitting headaches, swollen face and almost bloodshot eyes were the results of such vehemence that was released due to my irascibility.

After knowing the mess created, I tried to clean up slowly but carefully. I tried my very best not to make another scene or tried to react whenever something spark to get me irascible. I was thought using a theory of counting 1 to 5 during the encounter. It did help, but this not a permanent cure. End of the day, it's on how I go about handling the encounters in a way which will not affect anyone. Not even the particular party who caused the encounter. Deep down in my heart, I know for sure, there will be a day where those people will have a price to pay to the One above us. I leave it to Him to decide on the punishment as I know that I cannot take such heavy responsibilities on correcting individuals who are such a pain, regardless of whatever.

I've learn to make full use of the term "BOCHUP" (* not bothered) whenever such incidents arise. I am not a master of that skill yet, but managing gradually, and hopefully, I would earn at least a Masters in it.

I have started to look forward to exciting things in life. Say for example, the World Cup 2010! To my surprise, the Grand Finals are on my Birthday! I just pray that my favourite team goes up to that level.

BRASIIILLLL...LA La La La La La La Laaaahhhhhh...

Hehehe..I know they didn't make it the last round but I still have faith in the Samba Rhythm that they will and always produce at this World known event!

I don't know if this birthday thingy will work but then, if it doesn't, World Cup, please make my day! :P

posted by ..BLaCkDiVa.. @ 10:12 AM